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What I wrote today

Ik mis je

Hold me till the morning comes --PA

Two broken hearts
Neither one knows what to say
Both falling for love
But not quite all the way

Look at us now
Reaching back to yesterday
Longing to know
If they are the ones to stay

After all I'm the one who said we're through
Now I can't live without anymore
Out there lost is the dream that can't come true
Is it worth the reaching for
Don't you want me anymore, darling

Hold me till the morning comes
Until I see your smile
Take all the sadness from your eyes
Hold me till the morning sun
Let me stay we've just begun

oooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh

Where shall we start
Tender words that we can share
Different believes
In time we will get there

Look at us now
Wanting more than words can say
Both falling for love
But distant all the way

Out there lost are the words I still love you
But they worth the reaching for
Do you love me anymore, darling

(chorus)

Hold me till the morning comes
Until I see your smile
Take all the sadness from your eyes
Hold me till the morning sun
Let me stay we've just begun
I wanna stay with you

(instrumental)
(chorus)

Would you love me in the morning
We used to be there in the morning
Would you leave without a warning
Say you love me too

(3 times fade out)

She's my woman, she's my friend--Paul Anka

She’s the core of my existence
Keeper of my heart
I show her no resistance
I know I’m not that smart

Turn my back on some things
My ego has its way
If I’m sure, I am sure of one thing
In her life I’ll always stay

She’s the first breath in the morning
And the last breath I’m taking in the end
She’s my woman, she’s my friend

Laying there beside her
At the finish of my day
She knows what I’m thinking
I never have to say

She holds me for a moment
Her passion takes me in
I lose myself within her
Forgetting where I’ve been

She’s the first breath in the morning
And the last breath I’m taking in the end
She’s my woman, she’s my friend

She speaks to me so gentle
When I can be so cruel
She’s soft and sentimental
But she’s nobody’s fool

A strength within her silence
The sets my mind at ease
She penetrates my dark side
Brings me to my knees
She’s the first voice in the morning
And the last voice I’ll be hearing in the end
She’s my woman, she’s my friend

I cry with her
I cry with her
Confide in her
Provide for her
I cry with her
Rely on her
I’d die for her
I’d cry for her
She’s my woman

I think she knows me better
Than I’ll ever know myself
Since the day I met her
There’s been nobody else

Echoes of our memories
Remind me every day
I stop what I’m doing
I think of her and say
She’s the first voice in the morning
And the last voice I’ll be hearing in the end
She’s my woman, she’s my friend

And I cry with her
I cry with her
Confide in her
Provide for her
I cry with her
Rely on her
I’d die for her
I’d cry for her
She’s my woman

She’s my woman
She’s my woman
And I’d cry for her
And I’d try for her
Cause she gives to me what I need
When I need something more
Than I can give to myself

She’s my woman She’s my woman

:)

Celine Dion & Paul Anka

There's something in your eyes
That's far too revealing
Why must it be like this
A love without feeling
There's something wrong with you I know
I see it in your eyes
Believe when I say
It's gonna be okay

I told you from the start
I won't be demanding
If you have a change of heart
I'll be understanding
When love becomes a broken heart
And dreams begin to die

Believe me when I say
I'll never try to hold you back
I wouldn't try controlling you
If it's what you want
It's what I want

I want what's the best for you
And if there's something else
That you're looking for
I'll be the first to help you try
Believe me when I say
It's hard to say good bye

We've lost that loving touch
We used to feel so much
I try to hide the truth that in
My love withoiut feeling

And when I feel we're not in love
I know I'm losing you


To whose who shared part of my life.
hey! you.... It's you.
Some
share my happinsee
Some
share my tears
Some
share my loness
Some
just past me by and leave a smile

Somehow I lost Some of You but I still Have you in mind.

Sometimes
I think of you just because of a song
Sometimes
I think of you just because of sunshine
Sometimes
I think of you just because of heavy rain

How many times I WISH to tell you 'I miss you'
How many times I WANT to find you and take a look at you
How many times I MISS you with tears and smiles

Hey! You
Not now..... Not only this moment
As long as I am still here
I will go on Thinking OF you or Missing you.

For all of you...
Whose who shared part of my life
Thanks for sharing something wonderful with me

Smiling :) --<<-@

The Unquiet Grave --by Anonymous

"The wind doth blow today, my love,
And a few small drops of rain;
I never had but one true love,
In cold grave she was lain.

"I 'll do much for my true love
As any young man may;
I'll sit and mourn all her grave
For a twelvemonth and a day.''

The twelvemonth and a day being up,
The dead began to speak:
"Oh who sits weeping on my grave,
And will not let me sleep?"

" 'Tis I, my love, sits on your grave,
And will not let you sleep;
For I crave one kiss of your clay-cold lips,
And that is all I seek."

"You crave one kiss of my clay-cold lips;
But my breath smells earthy strong;
If you have one kiss of my clay-cold lips,
Your time will not be long.

" 'Tis down in yonder garden green,
Love, where we used to walk,
The finest flower that ere was seen
Is withered to a stalk.

"The stalk is withered dry, my love,
So will our hearts decay;
So make yourself content, my love,
Till God calls you away."

Sorrow --by Aubrey de Vere

Sorrow

When I was young, I said to Sorrow,
"Come I will play with thee"
He is near me now all day;
And at night returns to say,
"I will come again to-morrow,
I will come and stay with thee."
Throught the woods we talk together;
His soft footsteps rustle nigh me.
To shield an unregarded head,
He hath built a wintry shed;
And all night in rainy weather,
I hear his gentle breathings by me.

We find by losing...--Frederick Buechner

We find by losing. We hold fast by letting go. We become something new by ceasing to be something old. This seems to be close to the heart of that mystery. I know no more now than I ever did about the far side of death as the last letting-go of all, but now I know that I do not need to know, and that I do not need to be afraid of not knowing. God knows. This is all that matters.

The Poem -- Isolde read it for Tristan

THE GOOD-MORROW.by John Donne
I WONDER by my troth, what thou and I
Did, till we loved ? were we not wean'd till then ?
But suck'd on country pleasures, childishly ?
Or snorted we in the Seven Sleepers' den ?
'Twas so ; but this, all pleasures fancies be ;
If ever any beauty I did see,
Which I desired, and got, 'twas but a dream of thee.

And now good-morrow to our waking souls,
Which watch not one another out of fear ;
For love all love of other sights controls,
And makes one little room an everywhere.
Let sea-discoverers to new worlds have gone ;
Let maps to other, worlds on worlds have shown ;
Let us possess one world ; each hath one, and is one.

My face in thine eye, thine in mine appears,
And true plain hearts do in the faces rest ;
Where can we find two better hemispheres
Without sharp north, without declining west ?
Whatever dies, was not mix'd equally ;
If our two loves be one, or thou and I
Love so alike that none can slacken, none can die.

What I like most in the movie is the husband of Isolde.
He asks her :Hoe to make you happy?
The real happy for Isolde is to love her love.
As a King he can treat her as something he HAS
but he loves her as a woman as a wife and as his love.
When he knows the truth......
Tears in his eyes with kind and generous , yes! with LOVE as well.
He doesn't STOP the love between Tristan and Isolde, and even give them FREEDOM.

The will behind all... just about REAL love.
A man Loves a woman with true heart.

For a country he is a King
For a marriage he is a husband
For a relationship he is a man who needs love and gives love

For Amy..
He is
the Real King

The King of Kings

Hold me tight

Dear papa
Dear mama
'How are you ?'

I am as weak as a baby
I am not strong or brave now
I even want to be a little baby in your arms
so that
I can cry
I can rely on you
so that
someone can hold me tight
with so tender heart
with so much LOVE

Dear papa
Dear mama
I miss U.

The movie--In Her Shoes

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)

I am never without it

anywhere I go you go, my dear;
and whatever is done by only me
is your doing, my darling

I fear no fate
for you are my fate, my sweet

I want no world
for beautiful you are my world, my true

and it's you are whatever a moon has always meantand
whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky
of a tree called life;
which growshigher than the soul can hope or mind can hide

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)
The younger sister try her best to read this at her older sister's wedding party.The sight touch deep of my heart. Because the younger sister has difficulty with words--dyslexia. hmm......
What is it? It means the waya person interprets written words and numbers is different from the usual way. And each person with dyslexia has different symptoms and is treated differently.

The relationship between 2 sisters in the movie is INTERESTING and heartwarming. Even the younger sister has a lot of bad habbits but the older sister can't live without her--the best friend of her life. She complete her life.

As time goes by
Something new in our hearts
You can tell
you can feel
You Even can See it
The more you lost the more you got
Time tells it!

--<<@to my lovely sister Alice :)-to my love(b.e.n)-to my parents-to my friends

The movie--Tristan and Isolde

Gavin DeGraw - We Belong Together
We belong together,
like the open seas and shores.
wedded by the planet force,
we've all been spoken for.
The hammer may strike, be dead on the ground.
a net to my hand, a cross on his crown.
we're done if, who we're undone,
finished if who we are incomplete.
as one we are everything,
we are everything we need.
we belong together,
like the open seas and shores,
wedded by the planet force,
we've all been spoken for
What good is a life, with no one to share,
the light of the moon, the honor of a swear.
we can try to live the way in which you speak,
taste the milk of your mother earth's love,
spread the word of consciencness you see,
we are everything we need
We belong together,
like the open seas and shores.
wedded by the planet force,
we've all been spoken for.
All this indecision,
all this independent strength,
still, we've got our hearts on safe,
we've got our hearts on safe.
someday when you're lonley,
sometime after all this bliss,
somewhere lost in emptiness,
I hope you find this gift...
I hope you find this gift...
I hope you find this gift.

〈One Art〉◎Elizabeth Bishop (1911-1979)

One Art
The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day.
Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant to travel.
None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

---Even losing you (the joking voice, a gestureI love)
I shan't have lied.
It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.


一種藝術

失落的藝術要精通並不難；
好多的人事物似乎本來就打定主意
要失落，失去它們因此不算災難。

天天都在失去某樣東西。即使狼狽也得隨遇而安
丟掉的大門鑰匙，胡亂度過的那個小時。
失落的藝術要精通並不難。

更遙遠的失落，更快速的失落要經常演練：
熟悉的地方，人名，以及你朝思暮想
要前去旅遊的名勝。失去這些不會帶來災難。

我弄丟了母親的手錶。還有！先前那棟，
甚至更早先的那棟，總共三棟心愛的房子。
失落的藝術要精通並不難。

我失去了兩座城市，可愛的城市。更遼闊的，
我曾擁有的某些地域，兩條河流，一整片洲陸。
天天思念，不過，這不曾帶來災難。

──就連失去你（那老愛說笑的聲音，那一道手勢
是我深深喜愛的）原諒我不願說謊。顯然
失落的藝術要精通依舊不難
即使看起來好像（寫出來吧！）好像一場災難。
（這是哈洛‧卜倫認為是碧許最好的一首詩）


“One Art” Elizabeth Bishops “One Art,” is an emotional poem that displays’ losing is not just an art, but a mastered skill. This is shown from a series of losing minor items, leading up to treasured loss; becoming personal and therefore something she can not master. Although, it may seem that “One Art” transmits the basic idea that losing something is a disaster, the speaker makes it a point to emphasize words to prove many losses are not disasters. The protest of disaster is repeated throughout the whole poem. Bishop uses different literary devices to express her thoughts. The speaker uses verse form and language to show her attitude about losing objects. The verse form is a villanelle, which is a nineteen line poem consisting of five tercets followed by a quatrain. In the second stanza, the poem is told in second person. “Losing something everyday,” seems to tell us to practice the art of losing things.--from internet

About JEALOUS!

It happened too fast to react. She just looked at me in a very Strange and Impolite way. When I was on my way to office. Friends and I didn't know how to react but for me... just feel COLD in my heart.
People just Try to say or do something to hurt others' feelings when they are JEALOUS.
I really hate such behaviors!!

I am afraid of getting too much help from friends.

I had such feelings all the time. Since long long time ago a friend tried to help me and got hurt a lot. I feel guilty all the time when others try to help me. I realize that's why I can't ACCEPT help without any considerations and that's why I do MY best to do anything.
Till now I don't know how to handle such conditon.When I REALLY need HELP,it's hard for me to ask. I DON'T know how to overcome this feeling or this condition.
This is a Big lesson to go through!

B.E.N this is one of main reasons that I feel frustrated when I think about trip to Europe.
Hard to tell........... complicated complicated complicated feelings.

A door for life.?!...

I had a great tea time with Chen chi on Saturday. We went to bookstore and then went to a tea shop to have a nice chat. I don't like to join a party and eat a lot. Sometimes.... it makes me feel blue and waste my time. I prefer to meet a friend to go for a walk , have a cup of tea, listening some music... something like that.
Easy day and share simple things gives me SIMPLE happy.

最進正在看一部日劇"一公升的眼淚",然後又無意間知道[踢翻你]變成小天使的消息，接著從學長那邊知道學姊因為癌症也變成小天使了。
如果你問我:會不會不捨? I say :YES.
Chen Chi 說 每個人都需要一個出口，對於我這樣的身體狀況而言再某些時候別人更能無戒心的讓我走入他們的內心，感覺自己的缺陷是一個禮物，雖然我不能說我從一開始就能接受並善待自己的缺口，但次現在的我對於我這個生命體的確是非常珍惜與愛護，這是一個出口部是每個人都能擁有!!

我想要買[一公升的眼淚]日劇送給有緣的朋友，分享我在這部日劇中所感受到的許多事情，關於[活著]這件事情的背後，有著更細微的意義存在，卻也是最真實的活著!

或許身心障礙的人他們多了一個door，只要open the door他們比別人更多了一個出口，這一點我現在才發現，I opened the door and see something WONDERFUL!

我希望每個人都能找到幸福的另一伴! (to my lovely friends)

Great lunch time with friends

I know them at World Vision ,we had a good time!
To do something not for fram or money, but just for the pleasure it gives us.
That's why we took part in the World Vision.


I sat beside a beautiful place.

My healthy FOOD! Delicious... =^_^=

A cake and a cup of milk tea.

Beautiful Lyrics--Push

PUSH

Every time I look at you
the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You’ve seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer my a softer place to land

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe in
You’re all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe

I get mad so easily but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do ‘cause you’re too good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you’ll go
You won’t stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe in
You’re all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe

There are time I can’t decide when I can’t tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I’d down
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I’m okay
Sometime that’s just what we need to get us through the day

You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe in
You’re all the things that I desire you save me you complete me
You’re the one true thing I know I can believe

Dance with me

Heavy rain
Thunder rain
Are you yelling?
Are you shouting?
Are you crying?
Let me dance with you
Just follow the rhythm of heartbeat
Move the body freely.
With my tender love
With my sunshine smile

Heavy rain
Thunder rain

Dance with me then.

原來，<愛>是可以分享的!

昨天，又有人問我[是不是單身?]，我說[是啊!]，他開玩笑說[我騙人]。
我覺得好像都是同樣的對白，關於我是不是單身的這個話題。
為什麼{我不應該是單身}的呢? 我比別人更想去問問你們大家的意見!! :)

曾經我自認為很愛很愛一個男孩，在我單純的大學生活中增添許多色彩，我從前一直不明白為什麼明明非常非常喜歡一個人，卻會不後悔的去幫他撮合另一個女孩，中間過程發生許許多多的事情，但是到現在還是[不後悔]。為什麼? 你若問我為什麼? 那我現在可以告訴你了，因為我找到了答案!

因為，對Amy來說愛情跟愛或許有著更大的交集，對我而言愛是一個大圓，非常非常大.... 比我張開的雙手還大，不是我可以擁抱或是觸摸的，是一份非常簡單、絕對、純粹的地帶。
如果說愛是一個大圓圈，沒有半徑沒有範圍，那愛情是另一個小圓，它的半徑因人而異，或許只是一個點點也或許是你雙手可以擁抱的範圍，那麼愛情包含在愛這個大圓裡面嗎? 對我而言:NO!
從沒有遇見過、知道過、體驗過，一份愛情可以被愛所包容，也就是說愛情在人的一生中或許絕對但卻不是那麼純粹。
愛與愛情所產生的交集越大，那就表示在愛情裡的愛包含更多所謂的自由。

以前我心裡一直有著一個問號?? 好大好大的疑問句!
在我成長過程，被教導要慈悲、要慷慨、要懂得分享，為什麼男女的愛情世界裡這些我似乎都很難感受到，很難看到這些美麗善良的畫面。

有一天我會遇到一份可以分享的愛情，愛一個人愛他所愛，愛他因為愛所產生的熱情與快樂，因為愛所編織的美麗表情，畢竟遇見自己想愛的人是美麗的，就算生命中有很多愛著的對象，我相信每個人都有著不同的位置，不同的故事，那就去祝福與欣賞他們的故事，並珍惜他與我的故事。

Love my love and love his love. It's lucky and happy!
Enrich life with FREEDOM.

About Love, including 2 circles-- one is called L.O.V.E, and another is called love (for lovers).
In one's life time, L.O.V.E is a invisible circle but you can feel it all the time and you have it all the time. But for love, it might be a little point or with a radius of opening hands. Depends! Only you know it.

There is a mixed area with 2 circles. How big area is means differet kinds of love relationship. The bigger the more freedom and joy. To really appreciate someone you love doesn't means limit his love to other women/men.

It's luck to run into some people you want to love and it's a happiness to fall in love with them. They enrich someone's life. To appricate it and give them blessings. We face a lot in a day--some are good and some are bad--it's life. If you compress a life in a day, every second means a lot for a person. What will you do? and How will you go on the Day/Life?
With joy, with delight, with happiness........ For me AMY!
I want to and will to go on the DAY with FREEDOM.
No Line!

Smiling for rain

轟.隆.隆! 轟.隆隆! 外面下著雷陣雨，原本打算出門的我現在改變計畫乖乖呆在家裡。下樓替自己泡了一壺茶、煮了一碗麵，自己一個人在廚房慢慢的為自己做著這些非常平凡卻感到平靜與幸福的事情。
有陽光的日子是幸福的，有雷陣雨的日子也是幸福的，或許常常我們計畫著未來，常常在當下做的努力都是為了將來，去忘了隨時可以重新面對[現在]，{{活著是幸福的}}這句話我一直無法非常肯定的對別人說，或許我看到太多[無法感受自己的幸福]，我知道我現在這樣子活著好幸福，每一件平凡的事情，都很用心的在體會與感受，我不能說我每分每秒都是開心快樂的，但是我試著[用心]去感受生命當下的味道，什麼[味道]? 幸福的味道。

To look and to listen ( freedom from the known)

p-168>>

Have you ever experimented with looking at an objective thing like a tree without any of the associations, any of the knowledge you have acquired about it, without any prejudice, any judgement, any words forming a screen between you and the tree and preventing you from seeing it as it actually is?

我聯想到[末代武士]裡的一句話：Too many mind.

Who has seen the wind?--Christina Rossetti

Who has seen the wind?
Neither I nor you:

But when the leaves hang trembling

The wind is passing thro'.

Who has seen the wind?

Neither you or I:

But when the tree bow down their heads
The wind is passing by. ----Christina Rossetti.